Lessons I’m Learning From Having A Voice But Not Being Able To Speak
Today I really feel as if I’m going to explode from not being allowed to speak. Encouraging others is so intrinsic to who I am so it’s very difficult not being able to say a kind word or to pay someone a sincere compliment.
I also love to worship the LORD in song. Although I do not have a “singing voice,” I instinctively sing throughout the day, both when I’m listening to worship songs and when I’m not. So over and over again I have to catch myself. This and not being able to shout out to the Lord for His goodness has been two of the hardest things about going through this challenge.
But singing is not the only thing that has come naturally to me.
Many years ago the Holy Spirit put a spotlight on Philippians 2:14: “Do everything without complaining and arguing, ” convicting me of my proclivity to mumble and complain under my breath. I’ve since made a lot of progress in this area. But, of course, I still slip up. I’m not one for a lot of texting–it becomes old after I’ve typed only two messages. Because of the pent-up frustration of having to write/type everything I want to say, the urge to grumble is rising up in me far more than it otherwise would. But have you ever tried to grumble without moving your lips? It’s impossible! Since I’m not allowed to move my lips or even open my mouth (except to eat), refraining from grumbling is now not only a biblical command–it’s also a medical directive. Though not fun, this doctor-sanctioned silence is providing a wonderful opportunity for me to practice self-control. For this and anything that works to conform me to Christ, I’m ever grateful.
It’s been said, “Silence is golden.” Tomorrow I’ll share what God is teaching me through this maxim. Please continue to keep me in your prayers. I’m feeling them…and grateful too. <3